Sigh, this is getting old, isn’t it? Well that will serve as my introduction…
Hello Munchies! Candle’s here. :) I hope you are all well. Personally, I am a little self-conscious and told myself that I was going to externalize the substance of my thought since I lack answers from some people. You can surely imagine who it is, more like who they are… But before that, I’d still like to share my journey and impressions of MunchyMC.
Starting off in August 8th 2020
The day it all began. Basically, I had joined the server to participate in a BadBoyHalo event because I often watched videos of Skeppy trolling it. Well, even if I could not stay throughout the event, it was still pleasant. The event was coming to an end and I thought I’d visit the other mini games, including Survival. The welcome was not the warmest since I was new, well it’s not like I was expecting a welcome shower… But there were a lot of people! At first, I was very bored so I went back and forth between Survival and Hub because I had nothing else to do. Munchy was the very first server I decided to join so I might as well stay there. I took my courage in both hands and decided to continue playing Survival.
The beginning was really basic. I had to make stuff to be able to progress. In the meantime, I was becoming the acquaintance of a lot of people like Toccataski (I still miss you…), she is one of the people with whom I wanted so much to share my gaming experience because I was quite alone. I remember those days when I explored the map in vain, those days when I hesitated to talk on the chat, these days when I myself doubted to stay but I made efforts to overcome my shyness as well as my unsociable character. I don’t even know why I, French, decided to join an English-speaking server… But the experience also allowed me to learn things! So I played, played, played so much, I became addicted. Survival was and still is a kind of refuge. I chat with people, help them when needed and even without ranks, I always found what to do! I was happy even if at the same time, I neglected my real life a little. I was 15 years old and in high school, the youngest in my class, I was quite a nerd so spending lots of time playing eventually didn’t become such an issue.
The day I was offered + was one of the best days of my life (it’s relative eh XD). I cried outright because it was the first time I had received a gift from someone, finally from a friend. It was a time when I played for more than 10 hours a day, the community was extremely active and alive, I felt so good and I was so honored to be a part of it, to know that I could still bring my touch of support and pleasure to everyone. I miss you, season 2 of survival…
It was also a period where applications for server moderation were open. I was now 16 years old and I thought I had all the chances on my side (ps: I thought hard XD). Every time I received a positive message, I cried. I know that helping is one of my priorities, something I love to do at all times as well as making people happy, bringing light when it’s dark, like a candle! I did not doubt my ability to converse with a member when he has a problem, or when there was a problem in general, a question that required an answer. I am a person who likes to converse and spontaneous, I do not like to make people wait because I sympathize with the fact that it is often disturbing. Unfortunately, I was young. I still lacked experience as well as maybe maturity (I did not doubt myself but I still understand that my application was not the most detailed and professional, but at least very passionate and honest). Happy to have shaped this reputation, I was still amazed at the results.My refusal was still painful to accept; I took breaks and even took the time to turn to admins for a better explanation of my mistakes. I had to improve and every time I played, I was careful with my words, I took care to apply myself as much as possible on my writings as well as my way of approaching people. Now that I think of it, I’m pretty disappointed…
Since then, season after season, I avoided thinking about this lamentable failure, even if I did not want to give up… So I put this idea aside and decided to enjoy the game mode. I grew up, grew in maturity, in age, I was at a stage where I shocked myself. XD I’ve had adventures about Munchy. The days I participated in events at spawn, or I built houses with friends, or I even got ++ and Legend (mercu a lot, Tarteris). Survival didn’t have that touch of excitement when I logged in but I managed to make more friends, I found goals, I helped people, I was still myself but without that spark in me. because of the lack of players, my refusal, what I had to manage in real life etc.
… to the present day. I am 18 years old, I am at university following my software engineering program and systems networks. I’m no longer a kid who spends her time playing (don’t judge eh XD). I’m a forum moderator and part of the bug & idea team, I main survival and I still thrive to bring the best gaming experience to all players by helping them and guiding them as much as I can!
What pushed me to make this post?
…well, it’s complicated
First of all, I want to say this; I have no hatred towards Munchy’s staff. I’m just trying to share some of my experiences, especially what I find unfortunate. I love the server but hey, I’m at a stage where, after 3 years of active play, I think it’s finally time for me to be faithful to my words and honest. This is really personal, some people might agree, some might disagree and I’d say no one is in the right or wrong. At the end of the day, we are in our rights to think how ever we wish to.
As the name of the subject indicates, I am tired of this objective that I had for 3 years already, of this resolution that I wish to achieve at the very beginning of the year 2023. I am aware of the fact that I am not perfect, there may be some points that I should remedy etc. But having played for so long and received so many comments supposedly that I was on the right path when nothing seems to change, it saddens me.
The staff always seemed to me, and I think I am not the only one to think so, like a large block of friends who precisely only accept people who are friends of these friends. I can imagine that it would be easier to have someone you know even without necessarily having great experiences rather than a stranger with a lot of knowledge of her favorite game mode. I feel denied, as if my place is not defined in any way. I feel inaccepted among those people who are supposed to regulate the game mode, some even who are quite inactive or who even have no hope for the server anymore. I am not gonna quote anyone but yeah.
- There are a lot of inactive staff members from many game modes, not just survival and I fail to understand the purpose of keeping people that have no more interest or are just not there anymore. It just is a blocus. The staff team is not being refreshed and will not necessarily improve if we keep on having people that are just there to be there. There are lots of people that have the potential to make Munchy a better place to be. Why? because they are passionate, they have time to spare for the server, they provide lots of feedbacks just from even logging on. But those people are stuck behind some that you will never ever see in game or just people that come to only be in vanish and leave the game right after.
In the case of Survival, I’m even happy, extremely happy to see Danior’s promotion because he is. the. only. staff. active. He spares time to find cheaters whereas some don’t even remember that they are supposed to. He takes time to answer questions in chat rather than witnessing helpless people. He host fun events here and there. What else to ask more? People like him… Currently, to my eyes, he’s the only staff on survival… And it’s clear that there are people that are very well suited for some position if given the chance. But it is just not gonna happen. At most, people that were on the staff team will just get back in and that’s one case we witnessed, didn’t we. I’m not saying that your recent helpers are not great, but why not having more newer faces?
I could speak for Kit PvP(I think, I didn’t even want to…). Yes, the game mode can be active from time to time but what to do when Sript isn’t on? Having to message someone in discord to eventually get some support… Sript is your only support on kit. The game mode is really lacking of moderation despite it being dead. Now that I think of it, it could even have less moderators than wool wars being entirely dead.
There’s no point for me speaking about prison as it got newer staff members, which was giving people hopes for probably a glimpse of time.
- At first, I did not even want to consider making this topic as I messaged someone disclosing my deep concerns about the Staff Team. The staff members that are inactive, the ones that have fully lost interest. It’s not a first and this has been lingering for the past year and nothing seems to be done about it. Heck, people can be busy, sure but summer would have so been a perfect timing to refresh everything, to propose some unique content, to host a staff application wave for maybe survival and Kit PvP. There is a lot of issues that can be acknowledged to my beliefs, but so little being done about the server and still, we would want more replies regarding how this manner is being considered. And yes, I wanted to be a Staff member over survival because I believed I had the capacities to be able to regulate every source of problems happening there as I am very well known, respectful and kind towards everyone. And yes, I never failed to hope for the best and reach out to people to get a heck ton of guidance. And yes, over 3 years, I tried my best to gain as much knowledge moderation-wise etc only to feel even more rejected, which is affecting my play style because it does not make me feel like playing this game anymore. It ruins the hopes of some of us, thinking with efforts, things will be possible. I should not even take this at heart, it’s a game anyways and I don’t have to be among such team to enjoy it and yet, the amount of deception it caused me, the amount of unfairness that I acknowledged, the amount of times I hoped; I can’t bear this anymore.
What to do now?
I’m not Staff, forum moderators aren’t considered as ‘staff’, but it’s safe to assume there needs to be way more communication as to consider giving out the chances to people that could impact the future of the server in such a positive wave…
Recently, I felt a urge to just completely leave this server but it still has a part of me that I am not willing to tear down as it will harm me more than heal, so break time it is. I will no longer actively play for a good while. Well I’m waiting for season 5, I am clearly not planning on spending my days onto it though. I already gave my stuff away so congrats to the one who’ll be able to restitute the mighty Stella Armour XD. I have grown up and I should really let go. Hiding my feelings and the flaws that I am witnessing doesn’t server me any real purpose so Yass. If you care to leave a remark to this topic, feel free to do so.
This could be a full farewell, at least to my hopes, but I’ll still be around messing with y’all cause I love you lots!